The Memory Man

I stand

at the gate that squeaks

when it moves to meet

the rest of itself.

A viscous collision occurs

as metal meets metal and

flakes of rust are disturbed

in the force of the thrust.

I wait in the wind for the

memory man to find his wings

and bring the broken

songs he sings for us.

I recall last spring when

the squeaking gate squeaked

and my waiting ceased,

when I rushed to greet you,

I moved to meet you;

the rest of myself.

As he sings to the beat

of the squeak,

and the thrust

of metal on metal,

the flaking rust,

I think of us.

Whispers

A whisper is little in the world,

but all the larger for the intention behind its

almost non-existent sigh-sized drifting

that sits to barely rest.

Breath on the brink of release,

brief on a breeze from the mouth

that ever so slightly speaks it.

Barely resting in this world;

breaking out, breaking free,

only to greet and pivot on the

precious, almost silent present;

finding weightless footing on the

pin point of a passing moment,

then flees, and ceases to be.

Which Craft?

 

 

High on the mountainside above a ravine,

The dusk drapes through spaces in violet beams,

Where out juts a shelf, of rock and of green

Here they gather.

Here the coven convenes.

 

Solemn they stand, each silent and straight,

Charged with the power their wills create.

Cloaked in the shades of descending night,

Five wise bowed heads bring words to life.

These are the chosen.

And here, they unite.

 

Open before them, and centrally placed,

Is a book bound by a finely-forged grace.

Within it enchantments, rarely believed,

And timeless traces of all that has been.

There, the spells.

Here, cast to be seen.

 

The masterful minds stand proud on the shelf,

Through whispering wind, and crackling storms,

Against critical elements, spiritually sworn.

By the moons light, in static formation,

Expressing, in turn, each magical self.

Here comes elation.

Here lies their true wealth.

 

The sacred staffs like swords are drawn,

Five wizened grips have, through endless nights,

Held proud and tight, til countless dawns.

Smooth and worn, and charmed to delight,

Distinguished contours are, slowly borne,

By hands and hearts devoted to write.

Here, are their wands.

And here, is their light

.

And out from the nibs, flows hand-written scrawl:

It streams from the tips; fluid and floating,

Glittering, trailing, in swirls that enthral.

Freed from minds and weapons; devoted,

Bursting, whipping, in response to their call.

Here come the words.

Here, they are all.

 

Each line that emerges, with graceful intent,

Moves in the fashion with which it was meant.

Fuelled with a fire that desires transcendence;

Erupting, ascending, with a rapturous force,

Or a delicate slither, on a soft sweeping course.

There, is intention.

And here, are its laws.

 

They dance in the light of the tones that they render,

Free, are the potions, the prophets are blending.

Each raises their staff, for their words to descend

Downward to hover; still and suspended,

Above the white page; awaiting appendage

Here, silence arrives.

Here, for now, the whispers have ended.

 

The Elder first, raises a feather to bid his will:

Emitting sparkles from the nib of his quill,

To join his words that are patiently waiting.

A maiden’s flowers, a skull. One vengeful;

Debating. And in the air, a stage, created.

He parts the curtains, no less to unveil

Humanity in dramatic light, and the trail

Of the pity designed in protagonist plight.

The sparkles dissemble, and whirl all around,

Merging with words bound close to the ground.

Alone and low, and barely heard,

His chant begins, to worship the word.

The conductor of truth, exposure, and magic.

Here is the bard.

And there, is the tragic.

 

“Words, words, words.

Words, words, words.”

 

Next, the lonely mad prophet, engraving his Songs

Strikes through the air with the whip of his wand.

And forth from the writing tip flies a glistening grain:

A single orb; of sand, and of pain. And within it,

The world that the coven explores.

Then the wildest flower is devoutly scored,

And in it, a heaven, that married its foe.

The infinite symbol is etched and a-glow,

Around and around, all-time is stretched,

And sixty small orbs are perfectly set.

The sparkles dissemble, and whirl all around,

Merging with words bound close to the ground.

Divinely mad, and faintly heard,

His chant joins the bard, to worship the word.

Here, is the prophet.

And there he augured.

 

“Infinity, divinity. Infinity, divinity. Infinity, divinity.”

                         “Words, words, words.”

 

A revolutionary Magus now takes up his stance.

His staff at his side, as when walking the lakes,

Where weaving his words his lance aimed to make

Himself, a speaker of those some deemed weakened.

His spells are spontaneous, overflowing and grand,

And with a thud of its base by an elderly hand,

Ancient wood strikes at the mountainside ridge,

Disturbing all that quietly lives. And into the dark

Scurrying creatures, hurried out by his natural art.

Upon the coven unfurls a vivacious scene:

It’s Tintern: lucid, and serene – translucent,

A dream- summoned, for great, growing minds,

To reach the height of the natural sublime.

The sparkles dissemble, and whirl all around,

Merging with words bound close to the ground.

Soulful and deep, aiming to nurture,

His chant begins, to worship nature.

Here is the lyric.

And there, is its spirit.

 

“Wye, Wye, Wye. Wye, Wye, Wye.”

“Words, Infinity. Words, Divinity.

Words, Infinity. Words, Divinity”

 

Now, comes the time of womanly power,

Where high is drawn, in a confessional vein,

A glass jar that holds the exquisite remains

Of an exposed, tortured, and blackened brain.

The pen that served the therapist’s hour

Fought devilish muses; and brutal devourers,

Intoxicated mortal, of truth and of flight

Now biting the air, and cutting the night,

As each heavy fig is drawn in light.

The sparkles dissemble, and whirl all around,

Merging with words bound close to the ground.

Lamenting and low; her tone is her business,

Her chant begins, with active distain.

There, is the Mistress.

And here, is her pain.

 

“I am. I am. I am. I am. I am. I am”

“Words, Infinity, Wye. Words, Divinity,

Wye. Words, Infinity, Wye.”

 

The final to conjure holds a Modern knife.

His nib, full-sharpened, deadly, it slices

Deep down past deception to the quivering core,

Where fragmented life lies shattered, abhorred.

Through the chattering clatter, distraction, and waste,

He plunges his sword through defensive states.

He raises his blade to the black page of the sky,

And crafts an eye of pearly bright white, stark,

And crisp, on the back-drop of night.

Then, moving on: a tarot card, and wings are drawn;

A bird, a rose, and a chess piece pawn.

The sparkles dissemble, but for the bird,

Merging with words bound close to the ground.

Boldly haunting, his melody heard,

His chant joins the chorus, to worship the word

Here, is the Modern.

And there, he disturbs.

 

“Time present, time past, Time present, time past.

Time present, Time past- Shantih, shantih, shantih.”

Words, Infinity, Wye, I am.

Words, Divinity, Wye, I am.

Words, Infinity, Wye, I am.

 

Relentlessly, the sorcerer’s chant:

Words, Infinity, Wye, I am, Time present, Shantih!

Words, Divinity, Wye, I am, Time past, Shantih!

 

With wands outstretched:

Poised, and aiming at straining creations, impatiently waiting.

The glittering sphere, assembled of words from the first incantation,

Is mixed with the sparkles of bright manifestations.

Light and letters, freed in the air, aloft then descended-

Amassed, and suspended by magic minds, to be seamlessly blended.

 

Words, Infinity, Wye, I am, Time present, Shantih!

 

A solitary spark permitted to fall

Ignites the page to bind them all.

 

Words, Infinity, Wye, I am, Time present, Shantih!

 

In the fiery flames of the burning pages,

That immortal sages through timeless ages,

Have wrought, defended, and woven their words

In the fabric of the canonical world.

Facing the fire of the burning page.

 

Words, Infinity, Wye, I am, Time present, Shantih!

Words, Divinity, Wye, I am, Time past, Shantih!

 

Face the fire!

“Quick” said the bird,

So, quick, went the words

To face the flames!

“Go!” said the bird, to all the words,

To all that falls in ethereal showers:

To the virgin’s flowers, the infinite hours.

Face the flames, of the burning world-

Of the burning words.

“Go, go, go” said the bird, to the fig

And the eye, the jar, and the card-

“Find your words! Fuse with your words!

Be eternally bound to the written world!”

Face your fire!

Wye, infinity?

Am I words?

Infinite time but,

Wye, divinity?

I am Divine but,

Face your flames!

Iamb present

I am past

Wye am I?

Iamb words.

 

Silence.

 

Stillness.

 

The smouldering book.

There is the coven.

 

And, that is their craft.

 

5 minute deadline #2

 

 

Skimming the scenery of this innocent space,
Where now each blink creates, not a trace,
or a droplet, but a torrent tide to tour the mind,
the page; a pace, a place, set for the tragic,

the defaced;

the sublime.

Mummy Issues

 

This is not what I chose,
You made this murderer of me.

You strove to crush this small
and choiceless hand in your grip
You smiled, I skipped; voiceless,
quick and all the while mute and blind
The stone cold soul behind your grin,
Thin grimacing lips hid invisible whips
and killer ties to bind these wrists.

This is not what I chose
You made this murderer of me.

Futile Love

 

My love for you does not exist,

For it cannot be.

For it to be, must mean it must belong

To some time and place,

To some tangible somewhere, to some version of reality.

If I claim it as my own, it must belong only to me,

Which cannot be.

And after all, which reality would you have me confine it to?

To this reality? This world of sense and smallness?

You would have me beat it to reduction?

Or densify it into visibility? So you may use blind eyes upon it,

So you may name it ‘my love for you’, and call it sure and safe?

You would have me claim it as my own, and not ours?

I cannot do that, for my love for you does not exist.

It cannot be. It is not.

Yet its magnitude, could not, would not,

be held fast in the feeble confines of this world.

There would be no room for its weightless gravity;

No space durable enough to cradle its submissive anguish

to peace. Nor to Rock its calm into a frenzied, reckless rage.

I cannot trap it here. Nor coax it to reside here,

Within some brittle walls of vain construction,

Where no human hand could hard enough whip

Its roaring silence until its deathly silence screeches and

its mute screams reach the deaf ears of oblivion.

There is no mortal death that could snuff out its vibrancy.

In its deep death, it is too alive for this world.

In its tenacious vivacity, it holds too much lively death to live here,

And in the scorching light of its life, the dark is extinguished,

And there is nothing. It is nothing.

For the light and the dark of my love cannot live here.

There is no life force capable of sustaining it.

So great that it could not be.

So entirely everything, that it could only,

ever and always,

be nothing.

It is so beyond life in its non-living that it is death itself.

beyond perishable, so dead that it can never know life.

You would have me try to murder my love?

So you can mourn at its empty grave?

And rejoice for the life you imagine it lived?

For all the evers through which time has flown,

My love can never know, yet knows all, all too well.

The never of my love would be the most present absence

So suffocating in its absent presence, it would devour,

And in its non-existence, would swallow up always.

The always here could not force its longevity upon its never,

Nor could the never of here destroy its perpetual foreverness.

It’s always is no moment, not ever, not even at all.

For in its lacking brevity, never is all time,

all moments, and all.

My love for you could not move here, nor could it be still,

For it is the sluggish-slow drag of the noiseless crawl

And the echoing shriek of purity,

at the mercy of the plummeting fall.

This world could not prevent its motionless plunge

into the unreachable depths of a life-lit pit

filled with the fluid of bleached black stone,

where depraved restraints hold virtuous freedom.

And you would have me blot out its innocence?

Strip it of its murky light?

And rape it of its radiant corruption?

So that it may lay it at your feet, life and deathless,

So you may fixed it there, and call it stable and purged?

It is a void filled vacancy; the most absent of presence,

So vast in its everything, that it could only be nothing,

And so singular, that it is everything and all;

All at once, everything and all, yet nothing at all.

Yet you, you would have me reduce everything?

And make something out of nothing?

You would have me house my love here,

In the illusory ramparts of this reality?

It cannot be, for it does not exist.

It cannot live here.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Boy Between Us

 

The boy between us inflames our faces

And fuels the feud in this decade long fight

It’s been a war alright, and it’s not over yet.

 

In fact, it began before the boy was between us.

I would not be trained in your regime

Nor tamed with pretty leather treats

Or meet your guidelines of what a woman should be

Don’t speak. Don’t learn. Don’t answer back.

Don’t you dare defy me!

During those years, to your annoyance,

All those orders fell on deafened ears

I’ve heard it all before

Just spat at me in a different tongue, a viler voice

But then, before, when I had no choice, no means of defence

I stored it all up, ready for the likes of you.

You don’t understand, this small iron and immovable frame

Was forged by far worse than you

See, long ago I was trained from a pup

Tethered to far worse than you

Do you hear me? Far worse than you.

Given music in exchange for silence

Given bruises to gain compliance

And when I say tethered, I mean tied,

And when I say tied, I mean bound and gagged.

And for all they trying and all the times

My leader led the way and yanked me back

Tired and trapped by the hand that held the leather strap

But that hand was stronger than yours

 

Then freedom came and began my reign of defiance

No more choked cries,

pillow-covered eyes

No more dead I

Do you hear me?

You will be fought to you death,

not mine.

 

 

 

Soundtrack

Voices guiding;

Bribing,

deep in negotiation.

 

Volumes fighting;

striving,

Slice in to speak.

 

Overarching shrieks

from drowning,

bitter tongues

fade to muffled tones.

 

Some sweet sounds hide,

heard underneath

Chip in, chime in

And in between with

Subtle chords to fit

That let rip and

land on the page,

or hover there –

mid-air to cause

a swarming war of rage

where ragged words

sing major slurs and

minor scales play shame.

A Ballelegy of Paternity

This tale to be told, of a man and his mind

Will tell of the power behind his decline

A terrible fiend lurked deep in his head

That cruelly and craftily led him to death.

 

A short life lived long while awaited the grave,

For the victim, through frenzied life, displayed

A tempestuous tongue full of venomous rage

Whipped franticly through its deceptive cage.

 

Deeds, like thorns, stab and prick with spiky tips

Like pointy pins they puncture skin, and yank to rip

Some land on fresh and perfect flesh,

While some seek scars to sink within.

 

 

In shallow sleep comes the jagged old man

Who feasts through the night on a cunning plan

Luring and luring; he reels in his prey

With bait of false promise of peace to claim

He coaxes the dreamer to follow his way.

 

 

The jagged old man lies clenched in wait

For the lids of the dreamer to open the gate

While poised on the brink of the realms of dark

He moves to the beat of the slowing heart

 

Step,

By step,

By step,

With creaking old limbs

He creeps to the dreamer

and taps to come in.

 

 

Crusted flesh forms the rim of a noxious cave

Where seeping sores wept tears of decay

The taut skin splits as parted lips move to speak

Exposing peaks of shards of teeth

Browned and weak, corroded and seared,

From the acidic breath of thousands of years.

 

 

Forth was forced a crackling sound

From the hollow of his dusty chest

Where could be found, no more no less,

A blackened heart that barely beats

 

 

And coming around from their rested phase

Shrivelled lungs recall their ways:

An arid wheeze progressed to a rasp,

Then the jagged old man spoke out at last.

 

I Gave You Fire

 

 

I gave you fire to fight this world.

Before you were born, it belonged to you. It was the only gift I had to give.

Growing bones, blood, and brain; you grew from flames.

Infused with the fire I grew for myself.

You fed from MY furnace.

 

I tried to teach you to summon flames to lick at the sharp edges of this harsh life,

to singe the outskirts of all that may try to extinguish you, so only you

can define and distinguish you.

I tried to teach you to use its force as your fuel.

I have been to hell to save you the trip, with my visitor’s pass, and each time returned,

burned; skin stripped, branded with ripped raw scars as souvenirs.

 

You would do well to remember: my fire knows yours too well.

It reared it, forged it for you, stoked it until you alone could keep it ablaze.

My fire feels your heat, and smiles proudly at the trail of embers that flare

and swirl up from the gust from the slammed door, or feels the burn

from a mouthful of your flames.

 

I gave you fire to fight this world, infused with the fire I grew for myself.

You fed and grew from my flames, and now,

for your greatest weapon,

I take the blame.

For your formidable defenses, I can only say:

 

Take care.

Beware.

The forger of fire

will fight you fair.